Anxiety

Whole 30 Day 20

How I’m Feeling

TEN. DAYS. LEFT. Not that I’m excited to be done or anything but I am starting to reach the point where I’m a bit over the whole thing. I’m so close to being done – but not quite there. My energy levels continue to be great. My digestion is better than ever. I’m learning day by day that more and more of my favourite things have non-compliant ingredients in them and I have had the inner strength to say “no thank you” even if I really want it. Thankfully, the people in my life have been nothing but supportive and when I have been over at other people’s houses, they have had compliant options for me for meals and have been open to me bringing my own oil and salad dressing options. I am so grateful ❤️

What I Ate

Breakfast: I had two eggs (surprise) with turkey breast.

Lunch: salad with roast chicken, a hard boiled egg (cut up on the salad), and some olives. I used my dump ranch as the dressing.

Dinner: Roast beef with roasted potatoes and sweet potatoes, carrots, onions, and green beans. Dessert was a fruit salad.

I’m currently packing my lunch for tomorrow. I made some cauliflower rice for the week and have chicken (made with coconut milk) in the fridge to use up. I forgot I didn’t have any veggies prepped so I am making some Brussel sprouts in the oven using roughly this recipe. Whole 30 Changes: I used Whole 30 compliant bacon and dump ranch and did not add parmesan cheese. I’ll let you know tomorrow how it turns out!

Whole 30 Day 8

How I Feel

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Well, Day 8, here we are and man, do I feel bloated. According to the Whole 30 Timeline:

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Maybe I don’t feel quite as dramatically bloated as the timeline states, but I definitely feel more bloated. I’m just gonna come out here and say it but I am not experiencing constipation or diarrhea (thank goodness) but my bowel movements have been quite regular and normal – better than before. I’m hoping this bloating phase ends soon, however.

On the bright side, I am starting to get a bit more energy. I did not hit my typical 2pm slump. Sure, I wanted a coffee around 1:30 but more for the taste than the tired sensation.

What I Ate

Breakfast: Well, I definitely didn’t leave myself as much time as I would have liked this morning to get ready so thank goodness for the egg muffins I made. I brought two with me on the way to work and they were perfect. Just what I needed!

Lunch: Leftover creamy broccoli-kale soup and a paleo chicken thigh

Snacks: Two tangerines – the citrus binge continues

Dinner: A (thankfully) compliant Filipino dish. I don’t remember the name of it but it’s some sort of leafy green made with coconut milk, shrimp, and pork. It’s one of my favourites despite me not being able to name what it is. I also had a leftover chicken thigh and shrimp as my protein.

Yoga & Well-being

I officially started my 30 days of yoga last night and my leg muscles are quite sore today! I also have been diffusing essential oils before bed which has helped me sleep through the night. I am continuing with the Five Minute Journal and trying my best to keep my moods elevated.

Whole 30 Day 7

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How I’m Feeling

I’m less tired than yesterday. My moods have dropped a bit but there are several possible factors for this:
1. Terrible snowy start to the day. The drive was slick and slow and did not set the tone for the day in a positive manner.
2. It was the first “full” day back to work. I love my job, but Mondays get even the best of us.
3. My anxiety has been a bit higher than usual. While I have managed to keep it under control, it has impacted my overall mood.

I have been craving weird things today: citrus fruits (so naturally I bought a pack of them) and seafood.

What I Ate Today

Breakfast: I did not have eggs for breakfast today! I had a “cereal” made up of fruit and slivered almonds with almond milk.

Snack: An apple, sliced.

Lunch: Leftover fajita chicken and shrimp! Deelish.

Dinner: To satisfy my seafood craving, I made a seafood medley (salmon and shrimp) in coconut oil with garlic. As a side, I made butternut squash noodles with spinach and mushrooms from Tasting Page.

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For breakfast for the week, I made some Breakfast Egg Muffins! I can’t wait to freeze them and eat them this week so I don’t have to stress about what I’m going to eat as I run out the door. Mine have prosciutto, baby spinach, onion, mushroom, and garlic in it.

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An Anxious Minute

Inhale…

I am trapped in my mind and sometimes, I don’t know how to escape it.

A rolling script plays in my mind with all of the items on my to-do list. The anxious side of my brain is screaming. “You have to get them done! What are you doing sitting around?” The depressed side of my brain lacks motivation and drive and I sit still and lifeless. The response effort just to type this post is almost unbearably too high.

Two minutes ago, I was asked, “how are you?” Without hesitation, I responded, “Good, thanks, how are you?”

I’m not good. Why is it so easy to lie like that? Putting up a fake front to others is so easy for me. Almost too easy. If I go too long putting on the fake, happy front, I literally feel exhausted afterwards.

Exhale.

I forget to breathe sometimes. Steady breaths. I haven’t been to therapy in about a year. I was tired of paying someone to teach me techniques I could learn from Pinterest posts.

Inhale.

Five things I see: a door, the tv, my boots, my phone, my thumbs typing this post.

Exhale. It’s not working. What a stupid exercise.

Inhale.

How many other people around me are pretending to be someone they’re not?

Exhale.

My current heart rate has decreased from 104 to 88. I have turned on the Relax function on my FitBit.

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

This will pass, I tell myself. This will pass.

It’s just an anxious minute.

Let’s Talk About Self-Care

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Dr. Seuss once said, “Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

And isn’t that the truth? After all, you are the only you that exists. Yet sometimes in the craziness of life, we are so busy taking care of others around us that we don’t take the time to take care of ourselves. In recent years, I have started to take the time and do things to take care of myself and what a difference it has made!

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Welcome to From Panic to Plate!

Welcome to a safe place where you can read about two different things which are often connected: my experiences with anxiety and my experiences with food.

Read my story in the About section to learn about my journey of being diagnosed with Panic Disorder.

I look forward to inspiring your minds by both keeping the conversation regarding mental illness open and honest and by sharing recipes with you I have enjoyed making over the past few years.

Cheers,

– M.

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