I’m not publishing a Whole 30 Day 29 post today since I have only eaten sliced apples and shrimp today so with Bell Let’s Talk day being tomorrow, I thought I’d share a snippet of my life and anxiety experiences as a child. (more…)
How I’m Feeling
First, I want to mention how I’m feeling outside of the Whole 30 experience since this is also a blog to share my anxiety experiences. If you read yesterday’s post, you would have seen that maybe yesterday was not exactly a great day. Today, I will say, is much better for the most part. I went to the hospital to visit my friend. Although he was not awake, I enjoyed speaking with his wife and family members there. Praying for his lovely family and friends.
Whole 30 wise, I feel pretty good. My energy levels continue to be high. I managed to stay full from lunch until a late dinner at 8pm tonight. I appear less bloated in the mirror and I am beginning to regret not taking before and after pics for my Whole 30 Journey.
What I Ate
Breakfast: egg muffins! I forgot I froze some. So glad I found them.
Lunch: White chicken chilli. Also forgot I froze some of this as well.
Dinner: roasted bacon brussel sprouts with buffalo chicken tots from one of my new favourite recipe books: The Keto Diet by Leanne Vogel. So easy and so tasty!
I AM A WHOLE WEEK IN WOOHOO!!!!
How I’m Feeling
I’m less tired than yesterday. My moods have dropped a bit but there are several possible factors for this:
1. Terrible snowy start to the day. The drive was slick and slow and did not set the tone for the day in a positive manner.
2. It was the first “full” day back to work. I love my job, but Mondays get even the best of us.
3. My anxiety has been a bit higher than usual. While I have managed to keep it under control, it has impacted my overall mood.
I have been craving weird things today: citrus fruits (so naturally I bought a pack of them) and seafood.
What I Ate Today
Breakfast: I did not have eggs for breakfast today! I had a “cereal” made up of fruit and slivered almonds with almond milk.
Snack: An apple, sliced.
Lunch: Leftover fajita chicken and shrimp! Deelish.
Dinner: To satisfy my seafood craving, I made a seafood medley (salmon and shrimp) in coconut oil with garlic. As a side, I made butternut squash noodles with spinach and mushrooms from Tasting Page.
For breakfast for the week, I made some Breakfast Egg Muffins! I can’t wait to freeze them and eat them this week so I don’t have to stress about what I’m going to eat as I run out the door. Mine have prosciutto, baby spinach, onion, mushroom, and garlic in it.
I started on my mindfulness journey a few months ago. While I am no where near to being a pro meditator, I would love to share with you an app and a podcast which have helped shape my meditation practices for the better.
I am trapped in my mind and sometimes, I don’t know how to escape it.
A rolling script plays in my mind with all of the items on my to-do list. The anxious side of my brain is screaming. “You have to get them done! What are you doing sitting around?” The depressed side of my brain lacks motivation and drive and I sit still and lifeless. The response effort just to type this post is almost unbearably too high.
Two minutes ago, I was asked, “how are you?” Without hesitation, I responded, “Good, thanks, how are you?”
I’m not good. Why is it so easy to lie like that? Putting up a fake front to others is so easy for me. Almost too easy. If I go too long putting on the fake, happy front, I literally feel exhausted afterwards.
I forget to breathe sometimes. Steady breaths. I haven’t been to therapy in about a year. I was tired of paying someone to teach me techniques I could learn from Pinterest posts.
Five things I see: a door, the tv, my boots, my phone, my thumbs typing this post.
Exhale. It’s not working. What a stupid exercise.
How many other people around me are pretending to be someone they’re not?
My current heart rate has decreased from 104 to 88. I have turned on the Relax function on my FitBit.
Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.
This will pass, I tell myself. This will pass.
It’s just an anxious minute.
Welcome to a safe place where you can read about two different things which are often connected: my experiences with anxiety and my experiences with food.
Read my story in the About section to learn about my journey of being diagnosed with Panic Disorder.
I look forward to inspiring your minds by both keeping the conversation regarding mental illness open and honest and by sharing recipes with you I have enjoyed making over the past few years.