Ahh Valentine’s Day. Can you smell the love in the air?
I have to admit, I wasn’t going to blog tonight. I’m not even really a fan of Valentine’s Day. Never really have been.
When I was 3 and in toddler time at the library, I remember (quite vividly, believe it or not), coming home from “library school” and being upset because I had received valentines from kids who I didn’t want valentines from because I knew they didn’t like me and I didn’t want them to give them to me because they felt like they had to (or really because their moms filled them out for everyone in the program). I even kept that group of valentines in my memory box for far too long.
When I was in grade 7, my first “boyfriend” broke up with me on Valentine’s Day because he wanted to ask some other girl to be his girlfriend but he still gave me a stuffed animal and chocolate, so that end of the deal wasn’t bad.
At the end of the day, it’s a commercial holiday which is exciting because tomorrow, chocolate will be half price and THAT is something to celebrate. (JK I’m eating healthy now… see yesterday’s post)
On social media, I see posts upon posts of significant others and blah blah blah. My boyfriend won’t answer my text messages let alone care that I’ve posted a picture of us for the world to see and collect likes. I am totally NOT meaning to bash the people that do it, but maybe I just feel like I don’t need to do that. I think my mentality has shifted a bit with me [trying] to post less on social media. Particularly, less about my personal life on social media.
Do I love my boyfriend? Without a shadow of a doubt. I tell him every day. Probably about a million times a day. Every day, at some point during the day, I tell him I’m glad he’s my best friend and I appreciate everything he is.
Truthfully, I am happy I have found someone who I can share all the deep dark stuff and the sunshine and rainbows stuff. I can be in a room with him and be perfectly comfortable saying nothing just being in each other’s presence is enough. I can also talk to him about anything. I’m honestly surprised sometimes how we haven’t run out of things to talk about. He is my best friend and best half. I couldn’t ask for a better partner to journey through life with. There I go, sharing publicly with the world that I love him.
On this day of love, I just want to briefly say, I hope you all have had a wonderful day of love. You are all loved. You are all worthy of love. Give yourself a little self-love today.