Welcome to From Panic to Plate!

Welcome to a safe place where you can read about two different things which are often connected: my experiences with anxiety and my experiences with food.

Read my story in the About section to learn about my journey of being diagnosed with Panic Disorder.

I look forward to inspiring your minds by both keeping the conversation regarding mental illness open and honest and by sharing recipes with you I have enjoyed making over the past few years.

Cheers,

– M.

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An Anxious Minute

Inhale…

I am trapped in my mind and sometimes, I don’t know how to escape it.

A rolling script plays in my mind with all of the items on my to-do list. The anxious side of my brain is screaming. “You have to get them done! What are you doing sitting around?” The depressed side of my brain lacks motivation and drive and I sit still and lifeless. The response effort just to type this post is almost unbearably too high.

Two minutes ago, I was asked, “how are you?” Without hesitation, I responded, “Good, thanks, how are you?”

I’m not good. Why is it so easy to lie like that? Putting up a fake front to others is so easy for me. Almost too easy. If I go too long putting on the fake, happy front, I literally feel exhausted afterwards.

Exhale.

I forget to breathe sometimes. Steady breaths. I haven’t been to therapy in about a year. I was tired of paying someone to teach me techniques I could learn from Pinterest posts.

Inhale.

Five things I see: a door, the tv, my boots, my phone, my thumbs typing this post.

Exhale. It’s not working. What a stupid exercise.

Inhale.

How many other people around me are pretending to be someone they’re not?

Exhale.

My current heart rate has decreased from 104 to 88. I have turned on the Relax function on my FitBit.

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

This will pass, I tell myself. This will pass.

It’s just an anxious minute.

Let’s Talk About Self-Care

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Dr. Seuss once said, “Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

And isn’t that the truth? After all, you are the only you that exists. Yet sometimes in the craziness of life, we are so busy taking care of others around us that we don’t take the time to take care of ourselves. In recent years, I have started to take the time and do things to take care of myself and what a difference it has made!

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My Favourite Cauliflower Rice Recipe

I love cauliflower rice. I discovered it in my Whole 30 days and haven’t looked back. It can be a pain to make if you’re grating the cauliflower by hand, but a food processor is a saving grace to have. Alternatively, some grocery stores sell pre-grated cauliflower which is what I used in this meal (thank you, Farm Boy).

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Zucchini Lasagna

Lasagna, especially homemade lasagna, is one of my favourite meals of all time. While I was trying to find low-carb alternatives to some of my foods on Pinterest, I found a recipe that called for using zucchini instead of pasta.

I was sold on the idea of using zucchini as noodles during my Whole 30 experience (which I will talk about in a later blog) so I was excited to try this recipe!Screen Shot 2017-10-15 at 6.50.48 PM.png

The link for this recipe can be found on Ketogasm’s website. My only variations for the recipe were:

  • I used 2-3 smaller zucchini rather than 1 large
  • I used 1 400mL tub of ricotta cheese
  • I used PC Blue Menu marinara sauce rather than Rao’s marinara sauce

Definitely easy to make and very delicious. I can’t wait to have it for lunch this week!